Still lacking focus

Even though I have been getting better I am still lacking focus.

I know I want to do something, but I do not know what I want to do. I feel like I am wandering along aimlessly. It was really highlighted when I was talking to my mum on the phone. She was asking about what I wanted to do, I could not answer her though so I just told her that I did not know.


She was talking to me about asking about what was going on at school and told me that if I get offered an opportunity then I should just take it, but I really am not sure. If I am to go out to work then working within a school environment is the best option for me. However at the moment I really would prefer to work from home.

I just need to work out what I would like to do at home. At least I have got something to aim for and work towards. The most important thing that I need to do is figure out what I would like to do from home. Another thing I need to do when working from home is sort out my finances as I will be responsible for my taxes. I will have to find out information about that as well.

I have had a quick look and here are a couple of useful links that will help me. I will check to see if I can get a printed guide sent out to me.

Self employment in Scotland
HM revenue and customs

I know that there is not too much that I can do while the twins are at nursery, but if I spent less time browsing the Internet at night I can start getting myself organized.

I think I am going to have to get out my quest journal and make out my home business quest and set out some structure to what I am going to do.

Next visulization

I have worked out what pictures are next going up on my visualization board. The Yu-Gi-Oh 5d's DVD's.

Feeling better

Thankfully today I am not feeling as bad as I did last night.

Losing focus

while I am not as bad as I was last summer, but it has dawned on me today that my life is lacking focus. I am just wandering along aimlessly.

this is in all aspects of my life. I do not seem to do anything special with my wee ones. All I seem to do is tidy the flat without actually getting it clean.

I think I will have to do a Tarot and Oracle spread to see if that can offer me some help and I know I need to meditate about it as well.

Hip Hop workout

I have not been that good with my Yoga this week and I have not done it. I think I am going to have to choose a different day to do it on as Sunday does not seem to be a good day at the moment. I think I will have to make it on a Wednesday night from now on.

However after a comment that my partner said about trying out my dance workout DVD I decided that I would do it again. It has been so long since I last did it, and I really can tell it. I am not aching that badly, but I can tell I have had a good workout. It was fun though.

One thing that I really do need to work out right now is keeping myself calm when things around me are stressful and not letting myself get so angry. It really is beginning to rub off on my youngest son. If I do not do anything this year it will make it harder to get it out of his system as well.

Casting a spell

Today I cast the spell on a crystal and a stone to help me with my meditation.

February Goals

These are my goals for this month:

1. Start planning out what I would like my home business to be.
2. Spend less time on the computer at night.
3. Cut out chocolate.

I think that will do for this month.